do what you want to do and be youself

    sometimes i want to do something but the fect is cruel,and i usully can not done it,when i graduate i had done lots of mistakes ,even  without responsiblity for myself .so i just want to think what am i for to do this this things.at one time i works for a web company,i works that the workers computer is running well ,and the web server too.in the time i had study the system of linux and database of mysql,the programme language of shell and lua ,so it is a joke of lua it is so obscured for the software of mysql-proxy .then i think i should to change my live and my work because the leader of my group edy.liu  had leave the company to beijing the capital of the china .one day my aunt tell me that the well-logging company is inviting  for new works and she says paied well.so i leave the company of pojaa.

    In the well-logging company i firstly exercitation two month,the i come the base of the gas flied named da niu di.and the life is changed ,there is no holiday and no more pepole here ,the filed is just sand .the air is dry and my mood is low.i just want to tlak about my life here:

    At the beginning of my life i work for others everybody says them experienced workers ,i read books named "di qiu wu li ce jing he jing zhong wu tan " and "the base of  geognosy" ,then another two monthes had gone ,i had pack of the first experieced worker,and then comes the second.i want to say i am tired of this ,may be this is the true society.one day i finally can works just myself and i can make money.you know five monthes had passed ,and i had do a  jackassery ,i works just for money and it is no any connection with my professional computer.and if i want to earn i should  apple-polish lots of pepole and i must pay more attention on this.and i do not like this.i am tired. i know my technic is not as good as others but i known there is no chance for me ,because the advantange is all of us ,if you can then other's lesser.may be i should not to think so .so i should works hard .but in the life i can't help but sink into corruption .

    this is a day of my life (if there is no job),i get up at 7:30 then to have breakfast .before 8:00 i will get to the office . usually there is just to pepole there ,and the total is five .i had never read book quietly ,there is always lots of things and i think i should not to do.at 12:00 i will have lunch ,about 12:30 i will have shot sleep .the co. order everybody should on duty before 14:00 but if you are later there is no people to censure you .so i usually on tudy about 14:30 some times when the time is pass 16:30 i will not to go to the office .and may be in this time the expericeced worker and me will watch the film ,i should to watch or i will not fell asleep with the sound of the film.it is more  awfully at the night ,i usually study in the office untill 22:30 and then go to dorm then have a wash and prepare to sleep at this time is about  23:30 then is the same i should watch the film untill 1:00 or later when i really too sleepy .