Become puzzled after 30 years old. Need do something after today.

    Borned in 1983, I have been 35 years old and I keep unsatisfied status for my life(family), my job.

     For Family(life), I have two sons which maybe someone will say this is a happy point. But actually, this is pressure point as well(at least from my perpective). Moreover, my parents don't have income and I need provide for them as well. If wihtout my wife full support, I don't think I can have current situation which at least better than many others.

     For job, I worked for a new company since last year March after left my first company where I had stayed for more than 8 years. However, I am still grass-roots staff after so many years. You know, I graduated for almost 10 years. Maybe, many of my college classmates lead many staff already(I hope to know how many, but I am scared to ask them).

I applied admission of MBA course of Sun Yan-Sen university business school in Oct last year. But, I can't get the offer of early interview before national joint-examination of administration. In this situation, I need get much more score than those who obtained offer during early interview, so that I was considering to give up. However luckily, with encouragement of my former colleague Arvin, I still joined the joint-examination of administration and the final score is actually out of my expectation and this at least enhanced my confidence. However, I still got failed with 5 scores less than passing score. This exmination failure actually have less hurt than lost the interview offer, but, I was still considering to give up and stay the current status.

Recently, I read some wechat public number's articles and 2 of them gave me some inspiration what I should do(not sure if this is right). The first public number is "ShuoJiangHu", the author told me "Find what you like(I think better love), no matter how small it is, try all your best to do it to acme" by replying my comment . Another wechat  public number is "一刻英语"， the article is telling "How TangWei changed her life via English". Enclosed 2 links below.

https://mp.weixin.qq.com/s?__biz=MzIxMjE4NzM5MA==&mid=2651783921&idx=1&sn=d7e9644f7fe10553259a31a9bff3941b&chksm=8cb24360bbc5ca760ee9d22b9f727202353cd83c6ad21541b921ff895851d6fe0160e4ca9c2e&mpshare=1&scene=1&srcid=0323CiidiH7RxG2jhIA83Eed&pass_ticket=AhXEFFc2gPE0zIwSaOb7vCp8ABi8mPAlHQWOoWlCHXnZGiqoED14YwjUPK%2FsdXtK#rd

https://mp.weixin.qq.com/s?__biz=MzI4MjM4NDE2Mw==&mid=2247486465&idx=1&sn=8353a8137c8fc6550d6d49f51a2eafdb&pass_ticket=AhXEFFc2gPE0zIwSaOb7vCp8ABi8mPAlHQWOoWlCHXnZGiqoED14YwjUPK%2FsdXtK

Accordingly, I think I need do something to change my life from today. Try my best to learn English to acme. To achieve this target, I plan write 2 sharing articles(No matter what subject) per week（Actually, this is suggestion from <Soft Skills-The Software Developer's Life Manual>）.

To change my life, I have more 2 goals. So, at least 3 this year.

1. Obtain the PMP certificate.

2. Apply offer of Sun Yan-Sen university business school or Lingnan college or even at least South China university of technology.

3. Write 2 English blogs per week.

Actually, I get have some other idea what I love/like. One is basketball and other one is history. I think I can compose them together to do in future.

Finally, mark down, what I need to do.

1. Improve Management ability.

2. Improve English ability.

3. Accquire some certificate

4. Compose others what I like.

So, start from now, write 2 blogs per week IN ENGLISH, no matter what subject, how many words it have。