Return to young

      These 3 days, I am waiting for some good or bad news.

     I feel upset about this.  I think maybe I should try to adjust my  thoughts, whatever the result in 2 days is.  I think a real man should be matual and calm enough to cope with any accident, and should be confident and powful enough to get what he real wants. I should do the things by my own decision, and don't care too much about what ohers think.

   I really want to be the one when I am in middle school.  In that case, I almost can cope with everything, and could not be interrupted by other things or men.  So, what the hell have I done,  I have become nearly another different, completely different, man.

   I think, as I grow, I have taken more and more pressure, and did not accept in a good manner. Actually, in my opionion, pressure might be good for me, good or bad, that depends on how I treat the pressure.

  So,  take up the pressure,  with a casual way.  Take it easy.!

  Life is full of difficulties,  I shall know how to cope with them, and learn from them.  Learn to be mature. 

  I must clearly realize that the persons who are really care for me or care about me are my dad and my mom.  They did that before and will do that forever.  They have been thinking about for me,  while ingore things for themselves.  I cannot pay back to them using my whole life, for they have given me so much.

   So, move forward, at least for them.

  我想我可以!