To be 'selfish'

All I think about is to help others. I am always willing to do so, to my relatives, to my friends, even any one that I can help. But you just don't have so much power to do so. This makes me feel not good at the previous life venture. But now, I tell myself I need to be 'selfish'.

I am normal worker, maybe a white collar worker, in Shanghai. And I don't have so much money to take care of so many people even this is what I want to do. After paid off all the debts that I got when I was in university, I felt so good and my parent were in the better living conditions. After that I think I can handle my own business now and I now I can make a better life for my own family. But things happen. Yesterday my elder brother called me to borrow some money for his debts that he didn't want his wife to knew about this. I was shocked then because after his little restaurant business, he amlost raise a credit of more than 20,000. But now I even didn't have some money, all I have is debts. And also he didn't paid a penny for my family's debts part of that was for him. I don't what's the hell he want, but I knew he has changed and no more the nice elder brother anymore.

I knew I should not help him and after that he must need more money for more reasons, yeah, he is of that kind. But I still felt not very good about this. He is my brother, and I still want to help him. But I can't do that, even I have the money. Sometimes, people change. I think now I need to be selfish. I need to consider my own business now. I am not young any more, and I need to buy a house to live in and to marry my girlfriend. And who you really need to help are the people they do have dignity and is a nice person.

I need to say so to myself: Be cool, you are a good person. You just made the right decision and be happy with that. You are great.

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