I Should Never Doubt

i won't believe if u told me that i would watch other two writting programes while i myself only psing some pix before, but it's true in the past few days. i have not taken any parts in 51pc's programing till last night.
cxh have said that im a crazy programe writer(i still dont have the qualification to call myself the programer). once i believed so too. but now i doubt about it, i doubt that if my ideation of visualize is stronger than my ideation of logic, i doubt if my poor mathematic grade will embarrass my way to be a programer, i doubt if im a exactly fool since she could never accept me... i even doubt if i always doubt so much will really kill my dream, my dream to be a programer, dream to be with her for ever.

i know i should doubt no more,  i should take some Garfield's Cattitude -- the attitude of dissimulation, to life, to the people around us. i will try, as i wrote in my msn messenger,  a brand new life, i will doubt no longer.