2020 is very special. Covid-19 strikes the world, making everyone to kill their quarantine. This year, 2020 exert a great influence in my life so does my attitude toward my life, toward how I view the world. Well, in this summary, just give my try to say what I truly think in a reasonable way. Of course, no deception, no hateful comments, and no verbal violence here.
I cannot say 2020 is a perfect year for me though I have published my first SCI paper on the end of this September in my lifetime. Maybe, I have done something, achieved something this year. However, I still have made lots of mistakes this year, have done something that make me feel pity about, and have said something I should not say. Anyway, I cannot make a change on my history. Those things I can make a change is what I can do today and what I can analyze my future and find out some possible solutions for making my future better and better.
As a student mastering multimedia information security for my master degree, I have to say multimedia information security is not easy for us to learn and publish a paper for a SCI journal. Currently, combination is not allowed in multimedia information security paper so does a sole topic. We need some innovative ideas in our paper so that our paper will be accepted in a certain journal. For me, I keep reading the papers about the innovative ideas of multimedia information security and find out what I can do to publish a new paper. Evidently, I am still on the way because I still have so many things to learn and to comprehend. Nothing is easy, the process of my first paper is not so good, and I feel pity about some part of my paper, something I have done ironically, and some ideas I should demonstrate in the paper. Anyway, conducting our research on chaotic image encryption algorithm is not enough. Instead, we need to make use of some knowledge that new for the multimedia information security and capable of making our algorithm novel or innovative. Of course, high dimension of the hyper-chaotic system is not the good choice cz it is time-consuming. Well, I still feel unhappy and regretful about something I did and some ideas I thought.
Anyway, what can I say about my 2020? Well, the question is way difficult. For me, I am not going to answer this question directly. Instead, just say something I wanna say or I wanna think about. Obviously, the global pandemics sucks the world, making everyone to horrify and worry. At this moment, the issues of covid-19 remained unsolved. Instead, the issues are getting worse and worse. According to an investigation, the total population of covid-19 cases are more than 83 million globally and the total number in the US is approximately 20.2 million. For more details, you can search the dynamic research on Baidu or Google.
Something else I can say to summarize my 2020? I cannot deny that the pandemic exert a great influence in my life. But it motivates me to learn how to learn something independently, how to finish my scientific research domestically, and how to be self-disciplined. Moreover, though the online lessons I participated in are not my first story of my participation in the online lessons, this is my first story of my participation in the campus online lessons, my first story of participating the exams online. And of course, the covid-19 update my ideas about the online lessons. What update my ideas about the about the online lessons is that the online lessons overcome the limitation of the traditional lessons such as the limitation of the geography that will be evident under the circumstance of the severe global pandemic, offering us the new way to learn a lesson by checking the recorded video again and again to solve the issues to some extent we spot in the lessons, overcoming the limitation of unrepeatability of the lessons that the only thing we can do is to ask the teachers after class while the teachers may cannot answer our questions in time. Additionally, the pandemic motivates the teachers to test the students for post-school exam in a new way that testing the participants online, which overcomes the limitation of geography so that the participants will have a greater chance for their success, do them a favor in saving the money since they don’t need to purchase a boarding pass to fly to the place their test in and even help them focus on the exam itself cz the commute will make them exhaustive. For me, I have learnt something from the online lessons that to begin with, striking a balance on the lessons and our scientific assignments is pivotal; what’s more, I can learn a lesson in an easier way to some extent since I can solve some issues independently by checking the recorded video again and again so that I can comprehend the knowledge of that lesson better; in addition, finishing our assignments in a right time is way significant cz some teachers will ask us to submit the assignments we have done during the lesson to get the score in class so that we can pass the lesson. Of course, interactive study has tons of advantages and we will find that we can learn so many things independently through the online lessons within our interest.
What I have learnt in 2020? How about my viewpoint upon self-discipline? Anyway, self-discipline plays a vital role in our life for which self-discipline motivates us to be aware of what are things we should do recently, what things we should not do too much, and what we should not do at the moment. For instance, when you are at home for your quarantine, you will face up the situations about how to kill your quarantine. For some people, they don’t fix their mind on the things they should do. Instead, they are addicted to the video games, tiktoc videos, or some fictions they should not read too much. Here, we need to bear in mind that doing the happy things properly is good for our relaxation and the development of our wisdom, but the addition of them will ruin our life at the moment since the addiction of them will distract us from our obligation and eventually, we fail everything we are obliged to finish. Hence, we need to be self-discipline. What I have done during this long quarantine? I have told my professor I wanna pursuit my PHD in the future and she told me I should work diligently on the papers. In this way, no matter where I am in, as long as I have a PC that can run the Matlab code, and the sci database I can get access to, I can finish my own scientific research assignments at home. Of course, I also have to learn how to fight against the distraction since the atmosphere in the lab help us fix our mind on our assignments better. Well, learning something about self-motivation is the key under this circumstance. Of course, I try my best to make a daily schedule and communicate with my professor whenever I face up some issues I cannot figure out the solution or the keys at that moment. Moreover, what I have learnt during the lessons of self-discipline in the quarantine is that don’t give up and say something negatively easily, instead, just find out an alternative solution and learn how to get used to it, or how to create the conditions that fulfill our demands. For me, I just follow the routine and read tons of paper to comprehend what I have learnt and to summarize the whole subject. Later, write some codes to testify my idea when I really have the ideas and during the execution of the program, I can read another paper or review what I have learn in previous and try to figure out whether I can comprehend them in a new way. To be frank, self-discipline can be way beneficial for our life and learning how to be self-disciplined way exert a great positive influence in our future. Therefore, one of the biggest lesson I have learnt in 2020 is self-discipline and self-motivation since self-motivation do us a favor in having a grasp of self-discipline and self-discipline plays a significant role in the enhancement of our study or working efficiency.
Another lesson I am glad I have learnt in 2020 is how to face up my difficulties and how to fight for my better well-being. I have mentioned that I have told my professor I wanna pursuit my PHD in the future and I have already been aware that I need to have a good grasp of how to dealing with stress and challenges. The challenges I will face and the stress I will take will never be easy. In this way, I have to realize that, to make my life better, I have to learn how to bear the stress and how to make use of stress to make me powerful, and make use of the power I get from the stress to overcome the challenges I have face. In my 2020, I have to be stressed out with my first SCI paper cz I am a new guy to the SCI and of course, I have made a lot of ridiculous mistakes that annoyed my professor. Still, no matter how my professor view my mistakes, find out a proper solution to avoid making those mistakes again and be aware of the new ideas I have gotten from that process. Moreover, update my ideas on my research assignments and keep my eyes on the trap that makes my research way sucked. I have been disappointed with the paper that didn’t go in my ideas, but my professor tell me that being aware of the mistakes as soon as possible and find out the proper solutions for them is way important. And she told me I should not be so stressful though I have to bear the stress. In this way, she suggests me to find out a good way to release the stress. Now, since I have my first SCI paper so that I don’t need to worry about whether I am capable of getting my master degree in the future. Therefore, once upon a time she found out that my stress on the second paper is not necessary for me to take. Instead, she told me that I should take a break first then reboot my schedule. Anyway, I should not be sad about my mistakes I made, the outcomes I am not happy about though I still cannot forget them at the moment. Anyway, wish anything well in 2021.
What else? I am not going to talk about the negative things in 2020. Instead, I just wish we can solve the issues of covid-19 soon. And wish I can be way better in 2021 and be admitted to pursuit my PHD in the future. Therefore, I still need to try my best to self-motivate myself to finish my scientific research assignments and be self-disciplined. Of course, do more and do better than ever before.