The material called I am chinese impresses me deeply. The final goal we learn English is to show China to the rest of the world rather than worship them . We need to absorb knowledge from all over the world to strong ourself. I think everyone should ask themselves what their purposes of learning English are.
About 500 years ago a student asked his teacher what is the highest level of things. His teacher was suprised and then simled,telling him confidently that the highest level of things is reading bokks and become Senior officials. But the student refute that the highest level of things is bocome a saint. Maybe you know that the student is the famous philosopher called wangyangming I use the example only want to tell you we should build a right purpose towards English. Then What can I do now is making my spoken English process quickly so that I can communciate with foreigners naturally like someone else.
I still learn the ministory now and learn a lot about it. The character in the story just tell us I should be confident and I can do every well.From now on I will forget the things in the past and accept a new life.