choose life

 

Choose life.
Choose a job.
Choose a career.
Choose a family.
Choose a fucking big television.
Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers.
Choose leisurewear and matching luggage.
Choose a three piece suit on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics.
Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on a Sunday morning.
Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth.
Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself.
Choose your future.
Choose life.
I chose not to choose life.
I chose something else.
And the reasons?
There are no reasons.who need reasons when you've got heroin?

选择生活，选择工作，选择职业，选择家庭。选择TMD一个大电视。选择洗衣机，汽车，雷射唱机，电动开罐机。选择健康，低卡里路，低糖。选择固定利率房贷。选择起点，选择朋友，选择运动服和皮箱。选择一套TMD三件套西装。……选择DIY，在一个星期天早上，TMD搞不清自己是谁。选择在沙发上看无聊透顶的节目，往口里塞垃圾食物。选择腐朽，由你精子造出取代你的自私小鬼，可以说是最无耻的事了。选择你的未来，你的生活。但我干嘛要做？我选择不要生活，我选择其他。理由呢？没有理由。只要有海洛因，还要什么理由？

So why did I do it? I could offer a million answers, all false.
The truth is that I'm a bad person, but that's going to change, I'm going to change.
This is the last of this sort of thing. I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on, going straight and choosing life.
I'm looking forward to it already.
I'm going to be just like you:
the job,
the family,
the fucking big television,
the washing machine,
the car,
the compact disc and electrical tin opener,
good health,
low cholesterol,
dental insurance,
mortgage, starter home, leisurewear, luggage, three-piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine to five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension, tax exemption,
clearing the gutters, getting by, looking ahead, to the day you die.

   我为什么要这么做？千百条理由其实都是狗屁借口。事实就是，我是个坏蛋。但我能改，我要改过自新。这是最后一次，从现在起，我要洗心革面，重新做人，我要大步向前，选择生活。我的前途一片光明。我会像你一样：有工作，家庭，再整个他妈的大电视，洗衣机，汽车，激光唱机，电动开罐器，健康，低胆固醇，牙医保险，按揭，买房，休闲装，皮箱，三件套的西装，DIY，看电视，吃零食，生孩子，逛公园，朝九晚五，打高尔夫球，洗车子，穿运动衫，过圣诞节，领养老金，有免税额，通下水道，改邪归正，安居乐业，等待归天的日子。”