29.June.2010 Diary

Today is the fouth day of my first oncall shift.

At 7:30 or so, I was woken up by a abrupt call. I opened my my eyes and got awake immediately. I have developed a conditional  response against calls. And each time when I heard a mobile rings I got really nervous. Every few minutes, I would take a look at my mobile unconsiously to make sure I did not miss any call.

I don't know if I can get used to such life. But what is definite is that I won't take the job for a long time. 

I lose my control of my whole life. 

 

I have no reason to stay here. But I still have to without any choice.

 

Hope the day we live together comes soon.

 

abrupt :  sudden and unexpected, often in an unpleasant way: