Goodbye My favorite love

Dear boy,

I always think we should be together no matter what happened .

Maybe I am wrong .

U r offline again.

I feel very terrible ,you break my heart and I can help crying.

I came Beijing in Sept last year, among these 7 months,we are probably together less than 2 months.

Even this event ,what I think is to be with u . what u think is my blame , In fact,I am not ,u r.

I want u know.

When I said I hate Beijing, It's true in that moment when I was bearing crowd subway .

But I don't care as long as we can be together.

I also hate there for unfriendly colleague,dirty air 

and  the most important thing I cannot see our future especially when you say u maybe will go to Hefei.

Why I came here without u , It's not our initial target , I can't feel your effort  to be together.

Every time  I ask u when u will come back, u always say don't know. 

I know u can decide it, I ask just want to get some comfort which let me stay hopeful but u just think I am  blaming.

I can tell u nothing when I feel unhappy ,after listening my words,u always are more unhappy.

I feel tired and depressed.

I used to hide my thought after together with u.

I want you to be the one who can listen my heart  sound no matter  what I think.

You can not, u always say I am dreaming or other words to against me. U make me feel I am always wrong.

I thought a lot last night.

I am very sure I love u very much.

We can no house,no car even no everything.

But cannot lose love,understanding and future.

Three weeks ,no call ,no video.

I very miss u but u don't. At least, I cannot feel it.

family - work - sports - rest - friends  - me ............. 

Maybe it's destiny,  every time we prepare to go home together, always have block.

You deserve one people who is more suitable for u than me. Me too. I need more love and care.

In this moment , I wish u can give me a hug but u r not here.

Good luck my love.

And Goodbye.

love u ,

your girl