英语随笔，发散了 3.12

today is Tuestuday.i dreamed something that maybe something  i wanted to happened in the reality,but unluckily ,it could not exist in the reality.but maybe it came true in the parallel world,i hope i will be happy in the other parallel world.

it is a day with four classes, each class last 90 mins,it is long for me to learn english and japanese.i usually write articles while listening to music ,which are from hk.the songs from hk are beautiful and enjoyble.

i find i become more balanced than last term.i found that i was too busy to do everything and became anxious last term.i found i had not real life for myself such as just listening to music ,walking for a while,or just watching tv play.i just worked from day to night,i even needed to stay up late sometimes.i felt wired and tired,the work was filled with my life.it occupied my life.maybe i did not feel bad sometimes,because i was numb .maybe if i chose the way that learn backend,i needed to study so many things ,and even though i learnt enough things ,i could not get to a company that i wanted.because my school level,or my abilities or just there are not so many jobs for us guys to choose.i felt bad,if i work hard in this field ,but finally i could not find a good place.and there was also other reason that i could not do that ,we could talk other time.maybe he was right , i should balance my life and my study or work.but when i realized it ,i sacrificed something that might never emerge again.sometimes ,it was a painful cost to learn something .although i learn that , i still need time to push me to another way .

the value of my life is decided by myself.i have eagered to learn english well ,not for the exams.so i just want to do what i want and it also something good at my life.

today the article   is a little short , because i do not know what i can write in a short time.let me see ..