I am trying to write English diary

i will never think about PTSD because of myself.it just happened without warning.i was enjoy my weekend leisure time on my bed.i heared some loud voice happened upstairs.then i just heard woman's crying and saying 'not touching me,be away from me'.i was frightened by then .the voice was too loud.the thought just come to my mind that the guy is pounching his girlfriend,would he kill her ?what i supposed to do?would i saw a bloody room tommorrow morning?then i talked to some guy,who maybe my boyfriend someday.i need to talk then.but nothing happened.10 minutes later it was peace again ,no crying,no pouching.i thought their relationship come to the end.the guy left  next day' morning.i was glad to see this.i hate guys who pounch women .it is just like what happened to me with my ex.i thought i found true love ,but the truth is ,he was just a jerk.not only he puch your body,but also torment your soul, make you nowhere to stay.when i realized this, i know the old life is hell.now i dumped him,how lucky i was.i am so glad he just disappear in my life ,i won't see him anymore.i will just wait before meet Mr. Right.i will not trust love easily anymore.i want to make myself happy.that's all.