write down what i feel

  everybody has his cases every day,so do i.
     when i noticed i have worked for nearly five months i'm depressed at once.why ?
i've no idea,exactly,i have no words to fit my mood.new job hunting,my current working status ,my girl,my future even myself and so on ,which i must do it perfectly & do my best to choose my choice correctly for avoiding something poor.in  most of my time i'm just thinking about these.actually,i need time not only my heart,what's more,adding lucky chance.
    but i like coding on the platform of dotNET,you know that jobs in IT industry just have little time you can work on,more ****,now i participate in VFP projects unexpectedly which i hate most!i guess i have no passion & vitality for excellent result!my god,what should i do?!
who can tell my the way for relaxing  my direction?
    anyway,i'm sure i'll make good use of my spare time to accelerate my own project,not only for myself,but also for all that i love.